Throughout this season of the Bad Girls Club, Lea showed again and again that she had little personality of her own. While she was somewhat watchable as Kristen's side-kick (although her behavior as such was often cruel) she lost most of her supporters when she did a last minute turn-around and decided that she actually hated the girl who had made her who she was in the house.
To many this may have come as a shock, but it was quite in line with her behavior thus far in the show. She tends to find someone to stand with and when that person makes any mistake at all, she shows them the door and turns on them completely. One may wonder how someone can be so cold, as for many, it is hard to ever imagine treating a former friend the way that she treated Erica, then Brandi, then Kristen. However, for Lea, I don't think it's about being cold, it appears to be more about protecting her obviously fragile heart. No one switches personas that often or tries so hard to appear 'tough' without having some serious self-esteem issues (probably stemming from early childhood or teenage years).
Because she obviously has trouble dealing with anything (she shifts responsibility for the actions she took on whoever is her former friend turned enemy de jour, blaming them for everything, getting on the other side of the issue and avoiding her own actions) it is apparent that she never resolved these deep-seated feelings of inferiority, she may not even be aware that they drive her outrageous behavior. It seems as though she has either grown up in an environment where 'tougher' is 'better' or has been bullied herself, because she appears to be under the delusion that the girl who acts the trashiest (gets into the most fights, picks on the most people, swears the loudest) is the best.
Because she believes that showing empathy is a sign of weakness and is so sensitive, it is a lot easier for her to say 'I don't forgive people, as soon as they make a mistake they're gone' than 'I don't want to let people get too close, because then they might break past the facade and dislike me'. You see, everyone makes mistakes. We are all human. Every friend will err at some point. It is inevitable after you have known someone for a certain amount of time. This is also the point in time when you get to know someone the best, and when you begin to get close to them. This is the time when Lea dissolves her friendships. This also allows her to blame all of her bad actions (like everything she blamed on her friend Kristen) on that scapegoat and walk into a new persona and new friendship unscathed and with her heart protected... until that inevitably tears apart as well.
She needs to realize that the path she is on will lead her towards a very sad, lonely life... and eventually she will have to face her root issues, the more she piles onto her problems, the more she will have to face. Hopefully, as she is still so young and being on TV does tend to hold a mirror of yourself up which you cannot easily avoid, she will still be able to turn it around and figure out who she is and what she is really capable of.
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